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2008-01-11T04:59:00.000-08:00

ah hah!
im finally back again!!!! whoo!
anyways, so many things have happened when i was away in Dubai
i missed DC and the Exiles so much that i nearly cried when i saw everyone again.
i dont know how to explain it.
i really dont
so i wrote it in my commonwealth essay (which i will post up later)

anyways, i have this amazing thing to say,
my sis' close friend, Bryon Hon, is an AMAZING writer
no, seriously, and he is like, only P6!
go check out his blog: www.bryonhon.blogspot.com
he's amazing for a P6.

well, o's are fast approaching and im annoyed.
no, im not worried, im ANNOYED
seriously, think about it, it's only the 1st proper week of school,
and we'd 2 freakin' SPAs already.
go die.

this year, i swear that i'll not be distracted,
not even by FEI LUN HAI...
wait, does anyone think that it is worth buying the new CD???

right, so here goes the commonwealth...
its not well written, so i apologise in advance.
smile:)

Name: Charmaine Lim Jie Min
Class (2008): 4A3
Age (31st Dec 2006): 15
Topic: Class B, No. 5- Blue

Blue…what is blue to anyone really? Is it perhaps only an emotion felt, or just a color that spreads across the skies? Or maybe, just maybe, a memory...?

The sky was going to be deep blue, on my first day at Dubai College. Or so it seems, according to the weather forecast. It was not a good thing to me when I heard that during breakfast. Most of the time, when the sky is clear and there are no clouds, something is bound to happen to me, something that will definitely embarrassed me, and technically, it happened almost everyday. And since then, blue has always been around me to remind me that I need to be stronger based on physical and emotional basis to avoid constantly running into bad luck. After all, it’s my first day at high school, and I need to start a new image.

Walking through the gate of Dubai College now seems like a million years ago. But there I was, with my newfound friends, standing in a strange corridor, trying to find our Arabic class, waiting to find out what the teacher was going to do to us. We were alone again in the alien environment. I panicked actually. My stomach started to churn, turn over, and fluttered like a butterfly. I was thinking of running away but the bell stopped me. Curious glances are coming from both sides of the corridor. Then everyone started filing into the corridor. It was a nightmare…

We were constantly being pushed around. We felt small, so small.

We entered this completely foreign room- a completely bizarre place. Looks like we had entered the wrong room and our class might just be on the other side of the school when I turned out school map the right way round. The sixth-form class in the room surrounded us and wanted to know what we are, well, not really, but something like that. Although we were wishing that they’ll know that they are suffocating us as we were being pushed around, we knew it deep down really, that we sort of liked the attention. It feels like quite a homely sort of place- quite friendly, especially since the focus was on us as well. And we all survived (actually it was because a girl, in blue uniform marking her a sixth-form- whom we later realized is our Head Girl- told everyone to leave us alone and she brought us to our Arabic class almost too happily).

Six of us from Horizon Junior School entered this place out of the 250 successful candidates. One of them is my very best friend, Karina Takapi-Lambert. We had sworn to stick by each other very closely and we would have each other as friends only. Well, just by entering the DC gates, it no longer seemed possible. We were split up but, somehow, we’d always managed to bump into each other before classes. In some way, I still think that the school had planned it all so that we won’t too get lonely. But we never did anyway.

Thinking back, 7DL and I weren’t just by ourselves, we had each other to fall back on. We were class of only 20, but most importantly, we were to be a family for the next seven years.

We first came to know each other during the orientation, a day where only year 7s come in to get to know each other better, to help each other, and to get used to each other’s nonsense. That was also the time when we knew that I am to be the ‘mother’ of the class as I am always concerned with the class welfare; James Armstrong is a natural born leader and academic scholar; Jean-Michael Hurst and Murtaza (aka Mike) are to be the jokers of the class (“Hey guys, is there cheese in cheesecake?” or pushing each other off the glass-bottomed boat and having to swim to the shore during our very first camp in Fujairah); James and Jan Matus are going to be famous footballers in the school; Lewis Hammond, Mike, Jean-Mi, Sohan, and Abishek are going to be most outrageous cricketers; Nikita Patel, Jasmine Hujair, and Rebecca Mooney are to be in the first netball team in Desert Cats; Gaby is the self-appointed GOD (“How about if I tell you to do it…and you do it”), and the list goes on.

These are the people whom I can count on and they are all over the place- corridors, dining halls, classrooms, toilets…etc. And there seemed no possible ways of splitting us up that time. You just can’t. We won’t let you.

Every time I lie on the grass in the middle of the huge school field and look up the blue sky and the water reflecting it, I realize something: DC is not just any madhouse or anything; it’s a place that we call home.

It is a home under the vast blueness of the sky, and the memory of it stays in me.

And my friends, is the reason why the sky is so blue.

As DC students, we always had something to look forward to: barbeques, disco nights at Amnesia, prom nights, ski trips, French exchange, Doha exchange, Cyprus trips, Rashid Athletics Meet, etc. We explored the meaning of youth at school. And we took advantage of whatever came in our way. To be a youth is to do something that no one has ever done before or to fulfill something that you desire. Our life as students is like a game, we just have to take a risk at every turn we make and make it to our own amusement no matter how bad it may be. We were always busy looking for things to do, like, trying to score 15 goals in a year; trying to find a way to explode the science lab; play in Ireland’s youth football team; break a bone, etc.

But I never got to go on some of these events and find out what I’d never done before. I’d missed so many of these episodes when I left DC for the Ringwood School (RS) in the UK. I was the first to leave the family. Depressed, I told myself to never to render the change to my own benefit.

The sky was covered in strands of dark clouds when I took my last step out of DC.

But after four years, I look up and I see that the sky is once again blue and I smile to myself, taking in everything blue inside me. I am returning to school today and something is bound to happen, but I’m glad to be home again.

I blend right in and everyone is shock to see me back again. They surround me, and demand to know why I am here and will I be returning for sixth form. They tell me that they want the class ‘mother’ back again even if they are doing very well. I feel like I’m in my first day of school again. It is really embarrassing that I feel like crying all over again when I see these familiar faces and how much they have changed.

After joining my friends for Term 1’s ending assembly, we agree to gather around at Karina’s house, since her house is 10 minutes drive to the Mall and the nearest to a mall.

Everyone is already there by the time Karina and I arrive. For some reason, and I have still yet to find out how, the boys were already half-drunk and we have to push them into the house after being chased by the neighborhood dogs. Jaiwai, from Jumeirah College and our old friend from junior school is already running into the kitchen and busy unpacking all the snacks that they bought while Karina is screaming at the boys “Get off the bed! I don’t know where those paws of yours have been!”, and the rest of the girls and I are snickering.

Nikita and Gaby are at the back, refining their skills on makeup. Gaby asks, “Do you want to use my lip gloss?”. Nikita raises her eyebrow and replies, “Is it the shiny type?”

All of us stop what we are doing and burst out laughing. That is, all of us except Jean-Mi and Mike, the jokers, who don’t think it is amusing.

Rob, being the only person who is completely drunk, is watching his schoolbag go round and round and round and round in Karina’s washing machine.

Jin, Jawai’s other brother, the oldest one around here, and who is not invited to this gathering but he came anyway, looks up and says: “I’ve lost my car keys”. Three hours later and after turning the whole house upside down, “Oh, it’s in my pocket!”.

Jan, Sam and Lewis are sitting around the Christmas tree, trying to finish their GCSE Mocks for the winter homework. Sam suddenly looks up and asks: “How do you delay milk turning sour?”. Jan stares at him as if he was dumb, “That’s a stupid question, you keep it in the cow.” Sam nods his head, “Oh yea, how silly…” (Note, this question genuine and was tested in the finals last year, the student who answered it in the same way, got an A). “And what it is seizure?”, he asks. Jan sighs, “A roman emperor.”.

Lewis asks Jan, “What is the definition of ‘Benign’?” and Jan bites on the end of his pen, thinking hard, “Benign is what you will be after you be eight.”, and Lewis copies it down.

James looks around and manages to slur out a couple of words: “There is insufficient hot guys here…”, before dunking in another can of beer.

Within these short few hours, I really have enjoyed myself like I haven’t been doing so for the past few years. My place is really with these people. They are always my family no matter where I go. Right now, there’s this feeling in me and I want this to last forever and I have no intention of leaving this place.
But deep inside, I know that this is not possible at all.

As I look around, I realize that I have been clinging onto the past and thinking that they will always be the same, but I am wrong. They have all gone and accomplish so many things: James has done well in scoring 15 goals last year; Hector succeeded in blowing up the science lab during the open house last year; Vanessa was scouted and is now back in Ireland, representing her country in football; Rob managed to break his arm during the ski trip last year, and the list goes on forever.

Thinking back, I wonder what have I done? Nothing, for I always think that I will return to Dubai someday and there is no reason for me to work so hard in RS. Somehow, I felt exactly as how the sayings go: If you only look up, you’ll forget what’s down. It’s true, for I never really bother to have the curiosity to understand what is going on around me, and this result in my understanding of nothing.

I learn something from their smiles about moving on today. My friends here, keep things simple and did not over-analyze or complicate things. When the situation changes, they move with the change. I need to adapt faster, like them, like when they finally realized that one of them will not be returning anymore, they try to cope without the ‘mother’, and look after themselves better. If I cannot adapt on time, I might as well not adapt at all. I have to let go of the past and adapt to the present. Dealing with the change may be difficult, but the biggest inhibitor to change lies within oneself, and nothing gets changed until I change.

I had feared. I had feared that if I change, I may not be whom I used to be anymore and I still want to live in the past, in my own comfort. But even though some fear should be respected as it will keep you from danger, all the fears that I had in the past were irrational. There is no point and meaning in it. Fear is just an excuse. To change is something that I need to find in my own way, beyond my comforts and past my fears. No one could do it for me or talk me into it, I have to see it for myself

I can believe that a change can harm me and resist it. Or, I can believe that embracing the change will help me. It all depends what I choose to believe.

It is natural for change to occur continuously, whether you expect it or not. Change surprises you only when you were not expecting it or did not look for it.

The past will remain the past but needs to be buried deep inside me so that I can move on. If I stumble and fall, the past is only there is push me forward, not heal my wounds. But the most important thing is to embrace everything with a smile, not matter how bad it is, just like what my friends had done. Just smile, and there is nothing that you can’t get through.

My mother calls it the ’15 years old blues’. She tells me that it is a stage when the blues follow me everywhere I go. And she couldn’t be anymore right. Every time I look up, the blue sky reminds me that this family will stick with me forever. And just like the vastness of the sky, it will never end. This bond is a deep conviction that can never be broken. Even when apart, our hearts are still connected.

When I look up, the sky is clear intense blue, just like how I want it to be, always.

A memory.

2007-11-14T23:44:00.001-08:00

btw.
i'd jst seen my blog...
n i realise tht the blogskin is really
gettin on my nerves~!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to change it asap!

2007-11-14T23:44:00.000-08:00

Tag replies:
Sivvy: yeps yeps, u're welcome:) eh ur photography are not bad not bad:)

heard abt bahbus...erm yea
one of her classmate was criticising her thro the class blog...
erm well about tht...honestly
i dont no how to explain to u
but actually,
i hve to admit tht in a way,
bahbus deserved it coz she thought too highly of herself
... as in...(sigh)
she shld hve thought of how her friends would hve felt,
since they dont hve a choice as to which class they could go
due to parents saying no,
rather than provokin them indirectly, or unconsciously,
by telling the whole world tht she can choose
which class she wants to go.
its like being really arrogant.
n the whole blog thing,
what she wrote was sorta of a trigger to all this.
so technically,
she started the whole thing.
but in a way, shes not totally at fault.
i mean, honestly,
do u expect pri 5 kids to be able to use blogs maturely???

eh wait, does tht make sense so far???
i took me ages to explain it to my mum!
so u ppl may not undersatnd it....

i know what u're thinkin...
u're probably thinkin:
'oi! u're supposed to be siding ur sister!'

actually, i was siding with her in the first place
n i was pretty annoyed with her friends.
but seriously,
think abt what her friends would think as well.
as in,
why do u think they might hve done it.
it was kinda bahbus fault tht she was seeking attention
n provokin others at the same time.
but its not entirely her fault either.

get it???

so yea, thts wot i think anyway.
i plan to tlk to her tonight,
but its kinda impossible to hve a
civilised conversation coz
we may end up screaming at each other.
but oh well.

2007-11-07T01:23:00.000-08:00

wow
i'd just realized sth:
i havent been blogging for like, ages!
then again, i'd been busy...
erm yea, with the whole peer lite thing n exams nonsense.

im returning to dubai for the hols next week
n i dont know how i'm feeling.
honestly, im really scared.
i dont know what to expect nor do i no
what everybody's expectations of me are.
i mean, its weird, seriously,
goin bac there after a few years.
im no longer the old Charmaine who didnt care about anything
n thought tht everything in the world is there for me to mess up.
im no longer the Charmaine who uses her anger to solve things,
nor am i the Charmaine who wasnt afraid of anything.
im afraid tht i'd changed so much tht i'll be rejected.
i miss them, i seriously do.
but im afraid to meet them.
i dont even know what to say to them.
i really hope that i wont hve expectations
coz i dont want to be hurt if things dont turn out the way i'd wanted.
this holiday seems to be too long.
if i stay for long, i may not want to leave.
then again,
if the worst happens, the holiday will be ruined, n i would wanna leave early.
im scared, i dont no what to do.

M isnt helping much either.
hes been busy with is uni exams n mocks
oh not to mention tht hes goin to Switzerland
for matches.
which, means tht we're hardly on the phone together.

i hope tht Karina is still there for me.
i hope tht she'll be the one who takes me ard
i know how it feels to suddenly lose ur best friend.
but im really sorry.
i hope she's still who she used to be.

tmr's deepavali n im goin ova with jo n tht lot.
i really dont want to think abt it anymore,
these few days i'd been buggin them by spacing out.
i dont want to do tht again.
Sorry.

2007-10-05T04:14:00.000-07:00

heh.
we were tlking abt 9/11 tht day,
n i suddenly remebered this.
thought it might be quite cool.
so yea. heh.

9/11
1) New York City has 11 letters

2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.

3) Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin
Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.

4) George W Bush has 11 letters.

5) The two twin towers make an "11"

This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets more interesting:

1) New York is the 11th state.

2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number
11.

3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11

4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers.
6+5 = 11

5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 = 11

6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911.
9 + 1 + 1 = 11.

Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:

1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254. >2 + 5 + 4 = 11.

2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year.
Again 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.

3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.

4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers
incident.

Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:

Now this is where things get totally eerie:

The most recognised symbol for the US, after the Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Quran, the Islamic

holy book:
"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo, while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace."

That verse is number 9.11 of the Quran.

Still uncovinced about all of this..?! Try this and see how you feel afterwards, it made my hair stand on end:

Open Microsoft Word and do the following:

1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first
plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.

2. Highlight the Q33 NY.

3. Change the font size to 48.

4. Change the actual font to the WINGDINGS

cool eh??

2007-09-02T03:09:00.001-07:00

????, ratatouille, and hedgietouille:)

yeps! i fixed their hair. well done charmz:)

Don't ask. i hvent gotta clue wot was goin on then-.-"

this is known as the egoism...is there such a word???

another failure emo pose

the sec 3 choir family...awww...

yux!
the cutest award goes to...CHARMZ! heheh

yux. i really dont wanna no wot she was doin x)

these are from thurs. the day when the elderly from St Luke came to our school. or sth like tht. choir n gu zheng had to perform as well. CIP points or sth like tht....

2007-09-02T03:09:00.000-07:00

i often wonder if im in the right CCA... haha

it took them ages to get their faces straight for this pic haha:)

i wonder what will ms tan say if she sees this hehe

this? caroline's failure emo pose -.-"

nope. i dont no this bunch of ppl. lol

heyheyhey! pics from the national day parade. will post more l8er coz theres loadz to post up n i dunno how to use photobucket coz it takes to long. haha:) keep smiling:)

2007-08-27T03:09:00.000-07:00

i jst realized something...
theres actually no point in bloggin.
no one reads my blog...
in fact....
im not even faithful to my blog.
haha.

its jst like some friends really.
once u leave them...
theres no way tht they'll talk to ya again.
its as tho u mean nothing...
as tho we'd never been friends...
as tho we really dont no each other....
as tho they hve a problem with yr existence.

its funny really.
jst thinking back...
ive done so much for thm n its not recognized.
i no i dont play a big part in the clique...
but there not right in throwin me away,
n then pull me back when they need help.

i really hate it when one of them makes us of me
to do their work.
funny init?
funny tht u already expected them to do things the last min.
its really weird tht we were friends once upon a time
it really doesnt seem like it now.

its nice to hve a change for once
n to be where you truly belong.
to be stuck with them is like to be
stuck between being yourself n being like them

oh well
with the EOYs approaching,
i can only concentrate on studyin rather than thinkin wo they're up to every min.
i've given up a long time ago already

say cheese x]

2007-08-17T01:13:00.000-07:00

haha
at joyce see's hse now.
haha
im taking ova her laptop:)
tht moron was supposed to do her hmk and...
i tried to confisc8 her phone...
and jo was supposed to sit on her laptop...
but...
i gues we failed sooooo miserably haha

anyway 4 down...
2 MORE TO GO!!!!
then we hve the finals.
argh

went to eat with jo, joyce, sam n tiff
and joyce n i had a fight ova where we wanted to hve lunch
she wantd to go to white tangerine...
again...
n i, macs.
haha im totally broke now :)

(omg! i see archie comics on her desk!!!)

dad left already
so i guess i'll see him at the end of the year.
which means...
HOLIDAYING FOR 2MTHS!!!
yay!
first thing im gonna do is visit DC!!!
and KARINA!!!
yay!
dearest one! im coming!!!!
haha:)

aiya why is tht moron tking so long in the toilet???
i think shes laying eggs or sth
haha:D

2007-08-15T03:09:00.000-07:00

EXAMZ!!!
EXAMZ!!!
EXAMZ!!!
EXAMZ!!!
DIE! xD

2007-08-01T06:51:00.000-07:00

ok i'm gonna...
START ALL OVER AGAIN.
woteva probs that i had b4,
im gonna take all of them back.
and i wanna apologize for everything.

what im tryna say is tht:
i've figured out everything and
im gonna hang out with whoever i wanna
from now onwards.

anyways.
national day chapel service today
and national day reharsal tmr.
wow.
n it was my modular training yesterday
kimmie was right:
we're really gonna be busy until the end of our o's.

oh yea, i didnt hve time to blog this but:
I LOVE LIT FEST:)
ok. so we didnt win agnst presbyterian
but no biggie.
we had fun and thts all tht matters to me.
actually, i felt so retarded tht day.
we had to usher like 3MINS B4 OUR DEBATE
and we made every1 wait for us.
haha not mention tht we were the school hosting this event
and i got lost ushering half-way
haha
anyway.
i panicked coz the 1st opp speaker said:
"One-Shot Finch", then fell silent, sat down,
AND CRIED.
yea ok wot was i supposed to do thn.
i didnt even hve time to gather myself.
and the other team...
they were really weird.
they kept rebutting our motion
but arent they supposed to make their stand????

anyway, saw like alot of ppl from CAP
and eugenice was so excited when she saw M
haha but shes gonna stay loyal anyway:)
and HCI sent out all their REAL DEBATORS.
n i thought tht there was a real debate outside tht day???
but they were amazin and
joscelyn, eugenice n i were like "OMG!"
we knew most of them anyway.
they were frm CAP and there was ppl like...
the secretary (the one who wore the gay pink tie on CAP reunion)
and Max and tht guy tht i spoke to at the busstop.
oops soz i didnt get ur name...x)

oh cant forget CHIJ stacey and her friend from film:)
she is super cute btw.

went out with joyce aft tht
n tht stupid idiot wanted to go to woodlands
yea rite
stupid simpsons moive at 3.10 was full
ARGH

oh yea today's chapel service?
carolynn jst made me laugh the entire time i was singing.
n when i choked on "Great is Thy Faithfulness"
huiying had a heartattack coz i coughed directly behind her head
she wanted to murder me then hehexD
and the two stupid idiots behind me (sonia and rachelle)
kept rufflin my hair just to lookk for the white hair tht i hve.
its silver btw
and jodie? i dont think shes ever had a sweet b4 xD

haha random post x)

2007-07-27T18:25:00.000-07:00

Jo! hehehe not honored lol

anyway....
things dont seem to be lookin up at all
and i just realize that my blog seems really depressed
and disappointed this few days.
i really wanna be bloggin abt happy things
but it really doesnt seem to be the case
abt all anymore.
ok i dont get any of this.

the thing is....
i am really not sure if she shld be in the team.
y? u would ask.
simple.
she doesnt give a friggin care abt the team at all
n she gives herself her a position...
so what? u ask.
guess. shes a reserve.
yea thnks alot.
now i keep thinkin whether i shld give it up for my other teammate or not.
i wanna
but im the only who can keep the team strong.
mais im not sure about tht anymore.

yux.
i keep gettin headaches whenever i think abt it.
but she really does piss me off
what the hell was she thinkin???
she really hvent got the responsibility coz she only did it lit thing...
THIS MORNING...
and we hve less thn 48hrs to settle this.

im really tired n sick of all of this.
i no it probably is childish n i shouldnt think so much.
but even i hve to admit,
im oversensitive and i see things from a different point of view.
most of which is negative anyway.

mrs ong said that one will write better when depressed
or disappointed or upset
but i cant seem to write anything at all
half the time...
i dont think i even know what i am typin at all xD haha

so....wot r the sat plans peepz???

2007-07-18T15:49:00.000-07:00

i thought abt it already.
its ironic, really.
its not possible to hang ard others when
they r around,
but they always leave me out.
call ourselves a team...
yea rite...

how am i gonna survive on fri???

2007-07-18T15:42:00.000-07:00

dedicating this post to edlyn, jo, n joyce.
thnx for helpin me out here.

listen,

im really soz abt everything...

but i dont no wot is happening really.

i dunno how many ppl read this blog but,
all i wanna to say is tht i honestly
don't know who my friends are.
as in,
i really really dont know who...
i keep searching for true friends
n its kinda tiring tht i hve to
keep up to others.
i wish tht they'll do tht for me sometimes.

the thing is,
i used to know wot they r up to...
but now,
i cant even get into their head.
n the worst thing is,
they call themselves my friends...
when they hardly even no me at all.

dont get me wrong.
i love my ppl.
seriously.
but they dont give me any space at all
apparently,
they dont like me hangin wit others.
dont deny it, its true.
sometimes, i even wonder if im hangin with the wrong ppl

what's really sad is the fact tht
u cannot go any closer to a close one
or you'll neva no what might hit u.

2007-07-11T17:26:00.000-07:00

oh yay!
my blogger thingy is finally working!
yay!
btw im back to studying x)
im goin to be very hardworking this term
i CANNOT SLACK.
kill me if i do.
Amaths: i will conquer all the difficulties of you! haha:)
Bio: i will bug ms deepa if i hve probs wit you
Chem: ask ferngalicious???? nah i dont think so xD
Literature: i dont understand you at all....

help me!
with the lit fest thing plz.....
no, r u sure.
ok nm......PRANEETHA!!!!!
wot a stupid idea to join this thing. haha

Mon aimé, im sorry for all the times tht i've made u angry. im missin u sooooo much n i really wish tht u r here now. all i hve of u is only a necklace. u cld read me like a book, so easily, n im always happy around u....but i took it for granted. now i dont hve u around n theres no one i can fight with. but i still luv ya anyways:)

jo, thnks for listenin to all my crap. but i really appreciate it. u were there whenever i need u. like u said, a true friend will always be with u even if u dont no it. n u r tht true friend. thnks:) dont worry abt sat. the ans will come naturally as time passes. but it come from deep down ur heart.

Stupid Weirdo, u really r weird. u say words tht i dont no like: plebeian, n i had to chck the dictionary for tht. but im not laughing at myself, see? at least i'd learnt a new word. n besides, u say a sentence in every 10 sentences i say, like last nite. haha. btw, whats with the thinkin tht CAP is 'plebeian'??? u're the only one i no who thinks it tht way.... oh n i still dont see y u were irritated wit my girlfriend when she mentioned a guy. do u like her???? u really r weird, stupidweirdo...

2007-07-11T02:54:00.001-07:00

Guess you never really know
Just what you've got
'Til you finally realize
He could be gone
I know that I've been taking you for granted
For the longest time
All you wanted
Was someone who really cares
And I didn't even
Notice you were there
I promise that I'll never ever
Make that same mistake not twice

That was then
This is now
Took some time to come around
All I wanna do
Is try again
Show you how
I know that it's all about
Givin' attention to you
I was a fool for way too long
What you wanted, I could not see
That was then
This is now
Took some time to figure out
Love is all you need

Guess I never really thought about it before
I was thinkin' of myself
And nothing more
Didn't even wanna try to find out
How you really feel
Now I see
That I'm the lucky one
It's true
And what we've got
To know I never want to lose
I was trippin' in a fantasy
And missing what was real

I used to be someone
Who only really thought about
Themselves and no one else
And you could tell
But that's before
I understood
That when you've
Got something this good
Gotta let you know
And I want you to know

You're always my priority
And I wanna give you more
Took a little time
But now you know I finally see
That you're my world

I never want our love to fade ready, willing
And I'm gonna do whatever it takes
No I'm never gonna let it all slip away
'Cause you're my mine, yes you are

Comin' around
And ready to show you how
I'm gonna change.

2007-06-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

hope i dont get caught when posting this
coz im in the schooll library
n i think
the librarian hates me
haha got this off frm charlotte's bebo...
i feel like eatin a McFluffy now....

16 THINGS TO DO IN A SHOP
1.Get 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in people's carts when they aren't looking.

2. Set all the alarm clocks in Housewares to go off at 5-minute intervals.

3. Make a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the rest rooms.

4. Walk up to an employee and tell him/her in an official tone," 'Code 3' in housewares".... and see what happens.

5. Go to the Service Desk and ask to put a bag of M&M's on layby.

6. Move a 'CAUTION - WET FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area.

7. Set up a tent in the camping department and tell other shoppers you'll invite them in if they'll bring pillows from the bedding department.

8. When a clerk asks if they can help you, begin to cry and ask,"Why can't you people just leave me alone?"

9. Look right into the security camera; & use it as a mirror, and pick your nose.

10. While handling guns in the hunting department, ask the clerk if he knows where the anti - depressants are.

11. Dart around the store suspiciously loudly humming the "Mission Impossible" theme.

12. In the auto department, practice your "Madonna look" using different size funnels.

13. Hide in a clothing rack and when people browse through,say "PICK ME!" "PICK ME!"

14. When an announcement comes over the loud speaker, assume the fetal position and scream.."NO! NO! It's those voices again!!!!"

15. Go into a fitting room and shut the door and wait a while; and then yell, very loudly, "There is no toilet paper in here!

16. Get several bouncy balls and throw them down an aisle shouting "go, pikachu, go!"

2007-06-21T20:59:00.000-07:00

heya!!!!
went cycling with kimmie yesterday
n she was like already sweating b4 i'd even started
went to pasir ris park n we left our bikes at this shop n we went wlking
kim nearly went crazy coz i kept thinkin tht our bikes wld be stolen.
oh we walked past this sailing centre near the beach
n i asked kimmie:
'Where's the water???'
n she nearly died laughing.
accordin to kimmie
i said sth funny as well...
i dunno it coz i said alot of stupid things yesterday

went to her house as well and we were watching 'Smiling Pasta'
n i was like,
i think i hve tis drama
n it reall turns out tht i hve.
omg, im like completely obsessed wit nicholas teo's
song: 'little turtle'
haha

oh yea
CAP REUNION ON SAT!!!!
yay!
its at for canning park from 11.30 -5.30
for all u ppl out there who hvent figured it out yet.
oh yea, so tht means...
i might skive french at ard 10.30 when im hvin my break
n meet steph n daph n eugnice there
peiwen n cheryl cant cme..... :(
but i totally dont wanna miss this coz its.....
CAP whoo!
cant wait to see y'all morons there!!!!
love ya guyz loadz!

2007-06-16T19:42:00.000-07:00

rahhh
my hand aches. ok
so this is wot happened:
right before the day tht bra n i
are supposed to go running at pasir ris park
i went jogging in the morn...
actually, i think it was more of running...
and the next thing i knew...
i flew across the road.
i meant, figuratively.
seriously. imagine tht u were running
when the green man is flashing n u thought u cld mke it
then u suddenly had a leg cramp
n u fall flat on ur face
n theres this stupid taxi speeding past u.
haha. thts wot happened thn.
i hadnt even started rrunning for 3mins b4 i was injured.
even tho i was bleeding like hell,
i continued to run.... n then u think:
WOT THE HELL IS SHE THINKIN??!
yea.

so the next thing i no, my wounds hve been
mixed with blood n sweat.
not a very pretty thing really.

wot the heck anyway.

went to tiff n blossy's hse tht day.
damn funny man!
they were all like:
'u wanna fight isit?' haha.
n they also bandaged up my wound properly
coz the cotton wool was like, stuck to my wounds.
oops.
they're super funny man!
they actually made such a big fuss ova it
n bandaged up my hand even tho it was just a scrape.
ok, a very big scrape.

even bra n siv thought it was super ugly or sth.

oh yea,
they came ova on wed n,
they didnt even no where to alight.
bra called me when i was waiting for them at the bsstop
n she was like:
'where to alight ah? i c fields!'
n then i was like:
'get off the bus now!!!'
they got off, but they still cannot find me.
aiya, im fight in their face man! haha
watched take the lead n bring it on or nth
with them lah.
n my mum made this big fuss abt wot to hve for lunch haha.

aiya bra, the 3musketeers thing is an easier way
to call u me n arch coz its only 2 words rather thn 4 words moron
or kim wld call it 'male louser'
or sth like tht....i think

2007-06-08T19:42:00.000-07:00

ok.
jst wanna say:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARCHIKINS!!!!!

ok all i hve to say is that:
bra, arch, n i,
us three musketeers need to get
each other birthday presents.

mwhahahaha

jeez, i might as well get me
a birthday pressie myself.
haha :D
ok so heres the deal,
arch, bra, u guys hve to go shoppin one day
with me
n u guys must bring loadz n loadz of money
mwhahaha
(soz, watched to much of powerpuff girls with me sis...
n i jst happen to like mojojojo. haha:D)

PS i finally get to use the comps at A.F haha

ok heres a super lame joke:
what sis a pencil say to another pencil?
ans: 2B or not 2B haha.

one more thing:
im still stuck on like,
5 poems....
any ideas?????

2007-06-06T05:01:00.000-07:00

im posting everyday...
which jst goes to show....
how boring it is to be at home.

i no probably have heard it from other CAPpers a million times,
but.....

I MISS CAP!!!

i miss:
1) the people there
2) e-holland v.
3) sleeping in plenaries
4) the CUP GAME!
5) the screamings from the 2 judiths
6) throwin away the food....(actually...jst the breakfast,
hey! tht jst shows tht im not wasteful....i think)
7) the performance n writing workshops
8) sleeping in the scratchy bed
9) how we are always so high
10) everything about CAP

haha i still remember the time when we played
'honey i love you, so will u smile for me'
the boys were soooo easily targeted thn :P
hello? there were only 4 of thm in the group
i nearly puked when the boys had to do it.
haha. :D

ok i'll be bac l8

2007-06-05T05:01:00.002-07:00

tag replies:
Daphne: I LOVE U DAPHNE!!! btw i added u already n tht pic??? its ok i guess, but it u who was trying to avoid the camera then. haha.
Kimmie: waloa, i've got alot ot say, dude. n moron....i think u'd called me a male louser like, dunno how many times already. lol

ok.
im gonna keep posting
until im happy.
dont get me wrong,
its not tht im not happy or wot,
but its jst tht when school reopens,
the chance of me posting again is like,
NEVER.
ok not never, jst hardly.
so anyway.

i no this is gonna bore u to bits,
but i really really really cannot
forget CAP.
seriously, i mean,
with all the fun times tht we had,
scribbling crap to avoid sleeping in plenaries
not to mention tht i got wacked by
PeiWen n Gee when i keep noddin off.
oh n theres the other time when i had my
first poetry workshop with heng siok tan,
my very first failure: ???
thts my poem if u were wondering.

then the prose workshop with felix cheong...
OMG! Ng Ming was there
and there to talk none stop abt sex!!!!
i wonder wot his problem is anyway.
hes only a freaking sec 2 frm HCl
n i wonder how Max manage to stay with tht guy
but hes harmless
duh, i no tht coz hes in group b with us as well

haha which reminds me,
tht time when we went with the JC peeps
to the multimedia presentation,
we nearly had a heartattack.
those peeps there did a very gd job of filmin...
films of ppl hving sex or being bisexual.
but i guess, its not such a big deal since
its kindof a form of art. jst dependin on
how u wanna see it.

haha. i kinda miss
anoying everyone such as
Jerome (jst coz i called him jodie
it doesnt mean anything)
since both of us hve trouble remembering
each other's names.
not to mention he was the first person
to make sure tht i no how to play
the cup game properly.
until now, i still dunno y its called the cup game
soz we use bottles, not cups.
but woteva the case is,
dont bother asking me wot it is,
coz only CAPpers know wot it is,
n its ur loss if u dont try to get in

oh n theres the StupidWeirdo as well
soz, but XunWei, i'h thought ur name was:
ShunWei.
so now i jst hve to come up with sth else.
but jeez, hes soooooo quiet!
u're in JC! MIX AROUND!

oh n then theres daphne, steph, peiwen,
cheryl, zhicong, n me
in our small lil' clique until we started bonding
with others from e-hollandv.

so i guess now i jst hve to start missin everyone
or we jst hve to catch up
n watch a movie or sth.
but NO harry potter
no way.
we had a massive debate abt this.
no way.

2007-06-05T05:01:00.001-07:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i found Ng Yi-Sheng's LOUD POEM!!!!!
ok. for those of u guys who dont no
who he is n wot the hell is 'Loud Poem',
then i guess, u guys r super sad.
I mean, its like AMAZING!!!

ok i hve to thnk max from HCI for this.
this is the URL n scroll all the way down
for the AMAZING poem!!!:
http://lastboycreative.blogspot.com/

but it really iritates me coz i cant find
Boo Junfeng's 'Family Portrait'
and Brian Gothong Tan's
'Memoirs of a geisha vol.2'
its really irritatin.

btw jst to let u idiots out there no,
i dont wanna u to mke the same
mistake tht i did
'HCl' stands for
'Higher Chinese' or
'Hwa Chong Institute' and not,
'Hydrochloric Acid'
dont be such a moron like me
took me ages to figure out tho.....

2007-06-05T05:01:00.000-07:00

somebody lend me ur holiday h/w. plz.
anybody? plz?? jst this once???
no? anybody???
ok nm thn.
im not tht desperate.
jst too lazy to do it.

got this from cheryl's blog
i no she'll h8 me for copying the song
but i jst love it.
her group sang this for the last nite
its got the uptown girls tune by westlife:

Oh....... oh.......
C.A.P.Whoo!
you know that you're the one for me...
i can't live without you C.A.P
even though i sleep in plenaries
i like the teas

And when the councillors strike
we go Aiyaiyai
But it's ok cuz you're chio and you're shuaiyaiyai

They say we're not so tough
Just because
we're......... in....... love......... with.
C.A.P. whoo
you know you're the one for me
i can't live without you CAP
even though the food is
errm
TAsty
Fills my tummy(BURB)

And when we sleep with the doors open wiiiiiiide
the councillors come and they heave a big siiiiiiigggh
they say we're sleeping like a pig dreaming of....
dream of what ar?!

C.A.P whoo!
you know that you're the one for me
i can't live without you CAP
even though i sleep in plenaries
i like the teas

oh....... oh........CAP!
The end

2007-06-03T05:01:00.000-07:00

i dont no what this is....
but judith calls it the:
post-CAP syndrome.
i think this is what it cld be coz...
im missing it loadz already!!!!
i cant sleep any earlier thn 11.30
n i keep following the schedule.
oh dear.

Cheryl, Pei Wen and Stephanie

Me and Eugenice with her version of Humpty Dumpty

Eugenice and Ng Ming playing the dunno-wot game while waiting for the door to the seminar room to open for our performance workshop

our starting area for the filmin of 'FILL IN THE BLANKS' :- holland village

Xiang Yu taking her turn at filmin

Eugenice's so-called 'formal' attire for the last dinner

XingNan n her buch of friends at last dinner

Daphne and her MGS friends

Eugenice and PeiWen doin nth...

Me and Xingnan

Me and Daphne

Daphne, shying away from the camera

The COUNCILLORS

the Fruit and Veggie Band Singing "O' Sweet Potato"

Alan doin his silly poem

Kungli doin his stupid poem too

My Super Messy desk from all the writing n things

My Desk again

E321

haha, ZhiCong, u can neva escape the camera!!!

PeiWen n Steph stole my iPod!!!

The entire Film group with Lionel Chok!!!! LUV YA LOADZ!!!

weeeeeeeee...

2007-06-02T05:01:00.000-07:00

haha!!!!
jst came bac from CAP like,
last nite
n it's the bestest camp eva!!!
altho it was all writing n performance workshops,
we had soooooo mcuh fun!!!
CAP was totally CRAZY, COOL,
and it totally rocked!!!

"Ack, that's what aCAPella does to one -
makes one alliterate EVERYTHING.
Plus write everything in a third-person perspective.
Alas, it's the only offical publication at CAP,
so no choice but to let one's brains degenerate by reading it everyday.
lol :D " -ZhiCong

the food there wasnt tht bad actually
it wasnt as bad as the seniors had said
i mean, the whole thing abt
the over-cooked or not cooked food

n even tho this batch this yr
is like, way larger thn last yr,
n so the discipline is way stricter
we still had sooooo much fun
haha, like the whole thing abt
getting in trouble when we fell asleep
in lectures or
not locking the door when we sleep
which, i did tht by accident
n the whole Khalwat thing
lol, P.S my room is E321

this is frm ZhiCong's blog....
sums up almost everything
but sounds jst a little exaggerated:

This is a haiku.
Not a very good haiku;
But still, a haiku.

Oh, aCAPellaLife of CAP,
life of Ed(itor)
Council's randomness.

At least it taught me
Why we should alliterate
Ymo Y-cube, Yo!

Learnt to fear "Judith"
We had two in the council
How they screamed!
'Twas hell.

Council's sacrifices
Three hours of sleep a night
Walking zombies, heh.

Ph43r khalwat patrol!
Councillors enforcing curfew
(Just pretend to sleep, though.)

Plenary lectures
Some were good, others not so.
Pretty bor- zZz...

Thanks to JC peepsI
mparting the skillz of sleep
Great to steal a nap.

Did experiment
With how to stay awake
Sour mint mentos ftw!

Food was...average.
Breakfast did suck, chicken, yuck!
But woah, veggie's green! o_o

Wiring Heartlands
Weird theme and group names - for me,
e-Holland Village!

Fun times we've all had
Keep in touch, but how to end?
Spacefillergoeshere.

e-Holland Village:
Councillors!: Brendan; Olivia
Peepz!: Juin Yang; Rachel Au-Yong;
Patrick Leow; Jerome; Zhicong; Isabelle;
Wenting; Ningjia; Pei Wen; Stephanie;
Xun Wei; Gayathiri; Rachel Teo; Po linn;
Daphne; Teen Li; Charmaine; Cheryl

Film [performance workshop]
Group B
In-Charge: Qian Yong
Director: Marcus
Actoress: Rachel
Voices: Rachel; Ng Ming
Cameraman: Xiang Yu; Charmaine
Assisstant: Benjamin
Script: Group B
Special thks: Edlyn; Lionel Chok!!!
this is a group b production

went to holland village
for a super rushed 3hr filming
was nearlyknocked down by this stupid
oncomin car
3times
lol marcus tried to stop me
but he didnt want his voice init as well
haha
we spent ages reharsing
n doin the voice over.
editing too abt an hr or so
spent the rest of the time
slacking with eleanor, marcus, steph,
eugenice, alan. kungli, ng ming
PS KUNGLI!!!! THE PRATA IDEA WAS
MARCUS'!!!!

haha
btw i represented PLMGSS
for the collection of certs
nearly tripped over the stupid stairs

also wanna say thnks to my celebrity tutors:
Lionel Chok; Micheal Corbridge; Felix Cheong;
Alfian Sa'at; Heng Siok Teng; Brian Gothong Tan;
Boo Junfeng; Kirpal Singh; Eleanor Wong;
Ng Yi-Sheng; Nicholas Wong; Teng Qian Xi

ok now the nxt thing to aim for...
is the councillor interview thing
and the mentorship.
better start cracking now!!!!

2007-05-19T05:01:00.001-07:00

heya peepz!!!
no i hvent been writin for ages now
but dont 4get:
i wanna this to be more personal than commercial

anyway.
bac from the coolest sec 3 camp ever.
will never, never, never forget farhand.
haha

oh jst finished sec 1 iDiscover camp
kimmie, jill, zenia n chris,
thnx for being gr8 fellow facil!!! :)

1-4, 1-4,
the strong n enthu 1-4
all u ppl better watch out,
throw y'all out the window!!!

anyways,
wanna thnk those who had tried to mke me n kimmie feel better,
especially the part where we got bac our results.
failed bio n emaths paper.
gonna kill carolyn wi now! argh
wanna dedic8 to:
gloria, chong, chin, lydia, bra. arch, kimmie, qinyi, blossy, glenda
n all those who made us feel better
thks :)

also wanna say:
HAPPY BEL8ED BIRTHDAY GLORIA!!!!
luv ya loadz loadz loadz

Midsummer Night's Dream (365 degrees of MND)

2007-01-31T04:07:00.001-08:00

hey peeps.
i'll try to send all the photos tht i took today.
gd luck to the netballers!!!

nothin much happened today. saw sth in last period tht shocked me so much. i thought she had forgotten it already. guess she is still so damned depressed. but if this still goes on, then i guess shes gonna commit suicide soon. but i was so happy tht i managed to make her laugh once. but i wonder wot goes on in her mind when she c**s herself. im really worried abt her. so is juan an n tiff. we nearly died when we saw her palms.

yea, but this is for u anyway, V. i dont want ya thinkin of this.

Justice of self-esteem (the suicide poem)

In the depths of misery
Through out the existence of time
The Bereavement of your spirit was ended before the act
Your body and spirit expires
You lose confidence and your appreciated self-worth
And you take the simple methods available
Being self-centered
And not thinking of people who care for you
You let worldly issues consume all of your time
You focus your time on minor faults
No one is ideal
We all have our uncertain days
But we must parade the value of life
No day is precisely the same
There rests a long road of corpses
That has unsolved executions
The justice of self-esteem
Should begin at birth
To all tortured souls
There is still time to revive your spirits
Living in today's humanity
There is no compassion
People are losing hope everyday
Destructing of ones own interests
Has nothing to gain
Destructing of others interests
Causes the in depths of misery and sadness
The depression ends short
And unsolved
The unsolved murders where the corpses lay the true unsolved mystery
You store every one of your tribulations in
Avoiding conversations and family awareness
There are signs
But to avoid the signs you must provide the justice of self-esteem

PS. gave my mortal sth today. so happy!!!

2007-01-29T06:12:00.001-08:00

stupid CAP reflections.
did everything again coz it sux.
took me damned too long.

bra so dumb today. dont no the meanin of narrative.
wrote factual informative instead.
dude 20% u no. nm u still got compre + letter to pull u up.

n M, i luv u really.
jst dont wanna distract u, so im gonna keep it low.
wait till u win, then we'll tlk abt it.

n wy, wot the hell is 'evacuo' there's no translation!!!

and wot we gonna do for the damned peer lite stuff????? ARGH!!!

Justice
At the bar of justice,
Innocence is no bar to conviction, confinement, and condemnation,
To the junkyard of lost souls.

Waking up, trapped inside this sold, black reality,
With the revolting sins corroding my soul.
The perception of hope destroyed by turmoil and tyranny;
The heart of obsidian, black as coal.

A single, cold sin lying across my chest,
Heavy as lead and burning in pain now.
I ask for forgiveness yet it stays tainted at best;
In the end I wonder "What did I do???".

Sometimes the crime haunts so much I scream,
And even when my lungs burst, the taunting remains.
No amount of pain distracts this, with me in hell I dream;
Nothing becomes of this so all left is my blood stained.

I lash out punches at the stone wall with my fists,
Thinking only of myself when my knuckles bleed of anger.
After I have some crazy notion that cutting my wrists,
Will help flood out his crime and send the reaper, death's angel.

I watch the crimson blood gush from my veins,
Wishing that black cold sin would go away;
In a world where a heart of obscurity and dire deeds reign
And all hope of a truly happy life is slain.

It seems no matter what I do,
No amount of blood, atonement, or pain
Shall ever remove the tainting crimes askew;
I shall lurk in these revulsions of sin.

Happy Hols in Europe '06- luv y'all!!!

2007-01-27T22:08:00.001-08:00

2007-01-27T04:07:00.001-08:00

tag replies:
Gem: sheesh. howz u been. havent heard frm u for ages. but u've got bebo rite??? how cme u're not on my list??? n i luv u all, the gang i mean. n howz kay n kila anyway. they're so damned quiet!!!

PS. bra- u dont slack.

aiya. long time neva post already.
actually, it's coz i cant be bthered to switch on comp anyway.
very lazy n it takes too much energy. but u like my slides???

anyway. i jst wanna dedic8 this post to my bestest m8s in ringwood!!!
to charlie daniels, kimmie, gemma, kay, kila, finch......the whole lot of u!!!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!

n i also wanna say to JILLIAN SOON, BRA-NEH-NEH, JEYANTHI........
HAPPY BEL8ED B-DAYS!!!!!
soz neva upd8 for so long tht's why.....

goin out wit bra on tues to buy sec1s presents.
dunno wot to get for the 10 of thm...nd to ask jill, my bestie partner.
wanna ask arch cme but jst remembered tht she got LD.
sec1s r ok i guess. theres: Lynette, Jessica (boy-crazy), Debbie, Carolynn, WHD, Princess Diane, Valerie, Bob, Charsao Bao, n i forgot who else.
they're not so bad compared to 1-9.
poor sivvy, wish i could help her, i mean, her racist n demented lot.

got loadz to worry abt. i dunno how to do my french hmk.
too much commitment, with peerlite n sports n class comm n all.
there's a meetin nxt sat frm 9-11.
but honestly, i really cannot afford to miss another french class.
beniot will murder me. n i'll miss louise n claire.
moreova, really wanna pass tests n DELF A2 n B1 this yr.

must work out choir n SYF as well.
i think i wont be able to make it for the auditions, missin all the impt practice n all. i think im gonna be in trouble if they catch me in skl on sat nxt wk.
but i still hve to go to french even if its for 1/2hr aft the sports somm mting anyway.

i think im slacking. i dont think im gonna pass sec 3
will die man.
e-maths n english n i think ss nxt wk.
n the rest aft CNY.
i still got alot of hmk, including CAP. all shit.
but i dont think it matters anymore.
my sis heard a secret: we doin back to dubai for gd...
at the end of this yr.

like ive said. im dead.
means i'll go back to DC. my life's ova.
u've gotta be kidding.
will post more later

i luv u, C13!!!

2007-01-27T03:32:00.001-08:00

2007-01-09T04:35:00.001-08:00

haha hvnt posted for a damned long time. and jst to let every1 out there know: i've already apologised. so i dont care wot u guys tink abt me now.

anyway, peer lite's been so much fun n i totally luv my sec 1 class. 1-5, U ROCK!!! so proud of them tht they came 3rd in their performance with last minute preparation n without much of our help. n they r so entu as well.

by the way to charlie, steph, kim, finch, ashley, n to all those who commented on bebo, i'm so soz tht i've not been online. 1st semester has jst started so things r slightly hectic for me. not to mention tht i've been tking DELF A1 which wasn't so bad coz i got 75/100.

anyway, woteva u guys do, plz dont bitch abt any1 in our gang coz i no ppl like kila n whoeva r not very happy. i mean, i thought u guys were one big happy family b4 i left or something. but woteva the case is, i miss u guys n i hope to cme bac soon. i might come visit our this xmas so maybe prepare a xmas ticket for me this yr or smething. btw, how did last yr's go?

ok g2g do AMaths. btw does anybody even understand the stuff tht she gave us for hmk???

2006-12-10T23:14:00.000-08:00

ok cant tlk much now coz it's 11.09pm n im exhausted aft runnin around sentosa 2dae. but i hve to mention this:

HAPPY BEL8ED B-DAY KILA!!!! MISSIN U LOADZ!!!! U ROCK!!!! LUV YA!!!!

ok tht's all for now. more l8.

P.S Kila's b-day is actually on the 9th....i wonder where u guys in RSS went to celebr8 her b-day??? oh well.... jst keep missin me, u lot!

2006-12-05T20:03:00.000-08:00

I can only say this to Claire:
so is tht all tht u've got? honestly, it's pathetic. they're the lamest n cheesiest comebacks i've ever heard. i cldnt care less wot u think n im not even gonna bother wastin my breath. i was abt to gag whn i saw ur posts n i cant believe tht i'd actually fought back. grow up, man! u think u're the only busy one in the wrld? u've gotta be kiddin...

n kim? per-lease, jst say it yea. if u wanna say smethin bad abt me, be my guest. jst dont bother actin all tht prim n proper. its sux, coz it's wastin my time.

anyway, who cares abt them anyway. fel is here once again n im gonna hve to sleep l8 every night again. -.-" keep keepin me busy. aiya.

went out wit pra n arch yesterday n we did all sorts of stupid things. errr....not me of course. lol. but yea, they still dont no how to take the MRT, so dumb. lol. oh n we went to like, 2 places jst to find a gd booth to get our neoprints done: PS n bugis. n accordin to arch, pra's so dumb coz she chose the wron pics. aiya. typical.

met up wit jo at the esplanade entrance for the THREE concert coz the choir booked tics for us. had to pay $19!!!!!!!!!! n we still got the super front seats.... oh well. honestly, wit no offence or anythin, but the SY....wasnt as gd as the Japanese n phillipines choir. n they totally rox! ok maybe i was wron, n jo, u're rite, it was a gd nite.

oh yea, i had my DELF A1 yesterday!!!!! louise is rite when she said tht it was easy. haha, until the part when i had my production orales. argh!!!! i flunked it. i betcha i did. i mean, wit all the preparation n stuff, i'd still forgotten wot i had wanted to say when it came to the interview n dialogue!!!! stupid.....

anyway, nothin else to blog abt, but somebody wanted me to blog....lol
n pra, hve fun whn u're in florida! buy me somethn!!! lol.

2006-11-30T01:44:00.001-08:00

ok this is for somebody who said all of these which is obviously meant for me:

I don't know what is your problem,none of the other classmates minded,except you,and shiying doesn't mind,I don't see why should you,you book the chalet one ah? Who are you to ban this and that? Well, I don't give a damn whether some people like it or not,you can't satisfy the whole world. Don't come and argue with me,that this is a christian class and school,being a christian is all about your relationship with God,it's that simple. Stop being so bossy,a few C13 people have been tolerating you,for quite some time already,not only about this matter, others too. Btw, you said things happened during the first class outing,what happened? If you can't tell us what happened,you should just shut up.

ok listen up. i dont go around jkin abt this stuff. its not like i've got nothin else better to do. none of the other classmates nor sy saw any of the stuff u guys brought along wit ya. n (no names mentioned) ppl really arent happy wit this. even if u do think tht this is my friggin problem wit the whole religion thing, u can kiss my ass. get lost if u dont get anythn abt christianity. satisfyin the world is no matter, but there's this thing called consideration in case thts not in ur vocab. use ur common sense.

in case u hvent noticed i neva said i was a christian. n everybody's prob is my prob. im not bein bossy or nosy. n if these ppl cant take it, tht's their prob. i tell u guys off only for certain reasons. not for the fun of it. things tht happened durin 1st outin? y shld i tell ya. if u think none of these r ur concerns, then y shld i bother tellin u? honestly, some ppl n u r beginnin to piss me off wit ur attitudes. not to mention wot happened durin the 2nd class outin, the cold stares n other shit. n im gonna tell u smethin too, these ppl who cannot cope wit me.....guess wot? i dont give a shit. some ppl frm C13 cant cope wit thm either. n neither can we cope wit all ur stupidity of doin things tht shouldnt be done.

hello? theres this thing called 'underage'? u wanna drink, u wanna get caught...u no wot, get lost n go somewhere else to do this. i dont want anybody or myself get involve in ur shit. this is ur own fuckin stuff, not anybody else's. so jst get lost, yea. i couldnt care less wot u guys give a damn abt.
so, jst get a fuckin life.

2006-11-29T02:22:00.001-08:00

omg....nothin much too blog about.....i think im dyin here....rottin in fact....aiya.

goin to buy skl bks 4 nxt yr tmr n i'll try to avoid tht lot coz i dont want to 'interfere' in things n i dont want ppl to think im obsessed. besides i've got better things to do anyway.....

ARGH!!!!! I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!!!!

2006-11-28T21:29:00.000-08:00

im really rottin at hme!!! ARGH!!! must get out of this place!!! anyway, fel's here now, watchin Goong (sigh) wit my sis.

but here's the dedications i owe to my favorite peeps!!!!

TO C13:
Praneetha- in other words...bra-neh-neh...
Haha, we're gonna be in the same class nxt yr which means tht we can be partners again!!! yea, thnx for being there 4 me always and mkin me laugh at ur stupidity....u no, like the whole 'chocolate' thing n not knowin wot 'adultery' is. -_-" lol. n its nice to no u as well coz u taught me many thingss abt C13.... thnx!

Jaslynn-MIDGET!!!
Yo! MIDGE! can't believe ur gonna be in a diff class frm me nxt yr....who am i supposed to copy science frm now??? gonna miss ya sooooo much. especially how u usually give us a heartattack wit u always wantin to fart...im so gonna miss u n the whole korean thing...n thnx 4 bein the midge in class! luv u loadz!!!

JinLe
im gonna miss all ur rubbish n ur shit!!! it's been so much fun wit u around, especially ur lame jkes n super loud voice. oh n ur non-stop laughter...haha n thnx 4 scarin me when i first met u. u're a great friend n im gonna miss u loadz!!!

Jamie
Argh! wot the hell did u do 2 ur hair??? im so jealous...im gonna miss u n ur nonsense korean durin the hols...oh n how u always like to burp! n i no tht u miss me too...yea anyway, thnx 4 bein such a gd friend n always tlkin abt the things tht we used 2 tlk abt...you no....n for the being the quiet one when it comes to keepin secrets...the whole C13 trusts u! n i no tht u luv me really. luv u loadz!

Jeyanthi
im gonna miss gossipin wit u jay! u were the one who tld abt C13 tht i didnt no until only recently. n u're the most decent n the nicest n the least moronic of thm all. lol. im gonna miss u soooooooooo much!!! luv ya loadz!!!

Esther
argh girl! you're the only one goin to 3-1 frm C13!!! we're gonna miss u like hell n remeber dont stress urself too much!!! im so proud tht some1 frm our clique is goin to tht class. keep up the gd work n im gonna miss ur blurrness n ur luv for shin...or is it yul...luv u loadz!!!

Archikins!!!- food partner!!!
innocent-me??? yea rite! keep on dreamin.... thnx for lendin me a listenin ear for all my probs, n i'll keep u upd8ed abt everythin, seein how u're always far behind!!! n its nice to hve u around n ur super crazy hair.lol. luv u loadz!

Sivvy- soz still hve pobs wit spellin ur name....
hello tall one, haha, u can be the monitress again like this yr as we hve discussed.... thnx for everythin n explainin stuff abt C13 to me, n pretty much lettin me get away wit gettin u n pra mixed up. n thnx for bein there for me n sharin loadz of stuff wit me. luv u loadz!

Bryna
hey! im gonna miss callin u Brina nxt yr n all ur stupid nonsense wit jinle. n ur quick-wittedness at spottin my mistakes! luv u loadz!

Wei Ying
heya moron, thnx for ur ties! we'll be in the same class nxt yr so i guess i'll be seein u n ur super irritatin skinny chopstick figure.....n thnx for everything this yr!

Kimmie
will be missin ur narcissism this hols coz u're always posin when i take out my blue cam. aiya, every pic got u n archy in it.... haha....n thnx for all the rides!

Claire
hey i no im not tht close to u, but i guess tht u're sorta special to this clique. n wit u n kim around, there's always havoc. lol. gonna miss u!

Charmaine...
I LUV YOU LOADZ!!!!- haha jst kiddin.....

ok n to the other ppl whom i've grown closer to:
Jodie!!!- jojo...
hey, thnx for bein there for me always n accompanyin me since im always so lonely in choir. n i luv u loadz for everythin tht u've done for me.....the whole thing abt introducin me to tonnes of peeps n everythin. n well done on bein such a great wing leader!!!! luv ya loadz!!!

Juan An- unless u still insist on bein called as rachelle....
even tho we're not gonna be in the same class nxt yr, u'll be seein most of me when im doin somethin retarded, especially in choir. but im gonna miss ur blurness n super high-pitched voice!!! n dont be so stressed now tht ur in 3-1. so stick around yea? luv ya loadz!

Jillian-wildboar
hey thnx for toleratin me n my retardedness durin the whole megacamp n peerlite trainin camp. n u're one of the best partners too!!! thnx for everythin anyway, n u're brilliant at bein a class monitress. thnx n luv ya loadz!

Zhi Xian
ok i probs still dont no u well, but thnx for bein a great partner durin the peerlite camp, n how u kept laughin at my retardedness when it came to everythin tht happened durin tht peerlite dinner, u no, the cheer n stuff. oh n thnx for laughin wit me! luv ya loadz

Sardrina!!!
haha thought ur name was gina at first. but hnx for makin the camps so memorable for me. especially when u , arch, pra n i sat together on the last night to tlk abt all sorts of rubbish...hint...... anyway luv ya loadz.

Blossom...
oops, i guess i still owe u pics......but anyway, thnx for takin pics wit me n laughin non-stop everytime......luv ya loadz

Emily....
aiya, anybody can hear u laughin frm n million miles away...... thnx for bein there for me everytime i wanna tlk. luv ya loadz!

Claris
aiyo, u n ur stupid laughter..... i give up. n thnx for everythin durin the megacamp, n u were a brilliant wing leader. didnt think u were capable of bossyin peeps around...lol. luv ya loadz....n ur stupid weird laughter too.

Valentia!
hey thnx for bein my very first friend when i entered PL. n for everythin, like, makin sure tht i fit into my class n other m8s. oh not to mention lettin me copy u in eng..... man! we had so much fun then, laughin like a bunch of idiots..... luv ya so much!!!!!

Pingsee
aiya, so funny to hve u n jinle around, can give me laughin fits everytime..... luv ya loadz!!!1

2A2
haha, i no u guys miss me really.... thnx for bein the nest classm8s i've ever had n involvin me in everythin when i was new, not too mention tht u guys made sure tht i'd met enough friends. n i luv u guys for everythin tht u've done for me n toleratin my nonsense...u no....the ones tht dont make sense n drives y'all mad....lol. luv y'all.....(cant believe we're already splittin....) keep missin me!!!!

DYNAMITE!!!!!!!!!!!! (4 the members only...lol)
heya, thnx for everything n copin wit me!!! luv ya loadz n hve learnt so much together n frm Amanda, Priscillia, n Pavrithra!!! we rox!!!!
WE ARE THE DYNAMITES,
WE ARE ABLE TO FIGHT ALL TERMITES,
WE ARE GOOD PEER LITES
AND WE WILL FIGHT WITH ALL OUT MIGHT
AND WE HAVE ALL THE RIGHTS TO WIN THIS FIGHT!!!

BLUETOOTH!!!!!!!!! (4 the members only too!)
haha wot can i say? luv u guys loadz!!!!

there's soooooo many ppl i wanna dedicate to.....but i keep forgettin whom i want to dedicate to n it'll take me soooooo long........ well, either way, i want to say to all the ppl whom i know......I LUV Y'ALL!!!! haha if u wanna me to dedicate to y'all, leave a note!!!!!

2006-11-28T19:35:00.000-08:00

OMG todae's MRS RUSIKO's b-day!!! HAPPY B-DAE!!!! luv u loadz n missin u too!!!

haha spent the whole of last night tlkin to archy n upd8in her abt loadz of stuff. jeez, was told off coz i spent more thn an hr tlkin on the phone. now mum n dad wanna take away my phone frm me. oh plzzz....thts not gonna work.

anway. we decided tht we must go around s'pore n go visit the woodland cemetary thing. lol. actually, i cant wait to go out wit tht lot coz i hvent gone out wit thm for a wk now n im started to feel lonely. i mean i hve my cuz n mum n sis, but i really miss tht lot of thm.

went to PS todae for ceramic flowers lessons. needed to learn the techniques so tht it can be applied to the pergamo flowers.... if u get wot i mean.... man it was damn fun! but i had probs wit smoothin the petals most of the time. not to mention tht jos n my cuz kept puttin so much red on the ceramic dough until i got it all ova my fingers hence, muckin up all the other colors as well. argh, took me ages to get rid of the ink! but Ms Magaret, U ROCK!

so, the nxt lesson's gonna be on fri. im jst gonna finish up my NYAA n the whole ton of hmk b4 finishin my latest Pergamo proj then i'll practice doin the flowers! jeez, its gonna tke me mths to perfect it....

anyway, fel n my grandma's cmin to my hse tmr!!!! yea!!!i hvent seen ah-ma for ages!!!! sounds lame huh? well, u'll get ova it.

nothin else to blog about. more l8.

jst in case i 4get, HAPPY B-DAE, JAMES (Armstrong frm DC, not the other ones frm RS) 4 tmr!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-26T19:35:00.000-08:00

smethin's wron wit my blog.......nm

anyway, B is really here in s'pore now n i nearly had a heartattack when i saw her. OMG, she looks like a duplicate of LTL. n im not kiddin. same height, same face, same retardedness.....yux!

i really, really dont like her. even tho woteva happened happened many yrs ago, i really cant forgive her for tht. i really dislike her. i mean, she was a totally bitch when it happened. hello, didnt even help to bond our family relationship....our family nearly came apart! argh! wot the hell is she doin here anyway???

no tennis todae.....so hve to wait when longbear n min returns frm their hols coz i dont think tht the boyz wld actually wanna train wit me coz they can thrash me easily wit tht strength of theirs...

i dont wanna just anyone to hold
i dont wanna my love to go to waste

2006-11-25T19:35:00.000-08:00

finally got the whole concert thing done. can breathe a bit now.

it was actually only less thn 1 wks preparation due to the megacamp n peer lite trainin camps. n like for the time where i had to go hougang mall to settle the C13 jersey money....(PPL U HVENT PAID ME MONEY YET!!!!) n other shit like my piano lesson n things. my sis n i had to practice so hard non-stop within half hour n most of the time i was sight-readin it today. n i mucked up the last bit, as expected. not to mention, i forgot everythin tht i had kept a mental note on. ARGH!!!! i guess it was the nerves. i didnt like the piano either. took so much energy to get the sound out of it.

i miss pauline's piano. u no, the one which i've been playin on for almost 2 yrs.. the old one with such a beautiful sound. n i miss the -time where we stopped playin for more than half hr to argue abt how the pieces shld be played n y certain things r the way they r now. n i miss the time where she wld walk through the garden with me n explain to me abt loadz of stuff. aiya. i jst miss her sooo much, pauline n her gossips abt mr hawkin n RS.

anyway, DELF is comin up n every1 frm my french class seem to be silently nervous, n every1 is currently worried abt the end of yr test on 16.....3 more wks!!! which reminds....i wonder if i hve tennis tmr..... even if i do, i hope tht i wont be the only girl again, like the last time....2 scary cousins nxt to me. even if there is tmr, i bet tht alvin n aaron will definately go, now tht the o's r done n al is bac.... argh, noth of thm r gonna break my arm!!!!

Fading Love....
What is love defined but only an emotion felt?
So strong and so pure,
That nurtured and shared with another
All tests it will endure?

As I saw our love fading my heart grew sick,
All this pain that we had caused ourselves,
Only lead us to sitting alone,
Reminiscing the past that you have blown.

I don’t know where to go.
I don’t know what to do.
I never thought how hard it was not to talk to you.
It breaks my heart every time something reminds me of you.

My heart is in the blue whenever it misses you.
It makes me cry whenever I hear your name.
And this pain inside me is driving me insane.
It’s hard, it’s crazy, it hurts unbearably.

There is this place that has no name.
I can’t remember why I even came.
The ray of light that love has provided,
Showed me that my loss is nothing.

When I’m standing in the dark,
I’ll believe that love is stronger than hate.
There is no point in recollecting the mistakes we have made.
For we know that love is blind and may never last forever.

For this, I believe a song to be stronger than
The world’s pulling of us apart.
The night’s silence thundering between us will die down.
And winters will meet the blooming of the rose.

When you ride on the back of the unicorn through our dreams,
Look for me by your side
I’ll meet you with my hands outstretched.
For I know, we can hope for true love someday.

2006-11-22T19:35:00.000-08:00

had my bloodtest today. woke up so early in the mornin jst to get to outram park. my queue number was 055 n they were still servin 028. god! had to wait for almost n hour. totally sucked man!

i went in n i was like so blur n kept sittin at the wrong doc's. i was like so sleepy n things n i didnt even expect the needle to poke thro so quickly. i was, like: "wait, wait ,wait, im not ready" n i was panickin. doc didnt care n shoved the needle into my arm n she kept tellin me off co i was squirmin n things. aiya. c, now cannot really move my arm.

as if tht isnt bad enough, i jst had my P6 injection into my right arm n my whole arm muscle is like so stiff n painful when i try to move it. haha, at least it gives me an excuse not to do the choir exercises.

dont get me wrong. its not tht im not bothered or give a damn abt choir. i do, i really do. n i luv singin alot. but honestly, because of all the performances n SYF stuff, it's jst tht they pressurise the whole of the choir n i guess i can feel the stress to be a choir member. its not tht i mind or anythin, but think abt it, MTT tld me to choose between my second language, french, or SYF. honestly, tell me the truth, which is more impt? but i want to participate in SYF soooooo badly.

currently, i really dont care abt the Sat practices. french is more impt. moreova my DELF A1 exams is on 4th Dec n the end of yr exam is on 16th. who nos, in between there'll be very impt tests n revision lessons too. there is no way im gonna take the risk. not to mention, i had to pay $65 for DELF A1. n guess wot, the choir concert stuff tht we must attend crashes wit my DELF. c, anythin to do wit choir clashes wit my french. ARGHHHHH!!!

btw, spent the whole evenin doin bra's blog for her since she's away at netball trainin camp, n i promised to get everythin done 4 her b4 shes bac. well, her links r up. it took me ages tho coz the designer messed up everythin. not in tht case, but IceAngel did make things way too complicated. so i changed everythin n re-did a few things. makes life so much easier 4 me.

so bra, u owe me a movie ticket or lunch now. actually, no. jst a photocopy of the bk list for sec3 will do.....i lost mine.....

Un Cri de Coeur

2006-11-20T19:35:00.002-08:00

yay, got the whole C13 jersey sorted out 2dae!!! went wit jinle n bryna 2 hougang mall todae but esther didnt cme n nearly had a heartattack coz she hasnt paid yet. turns out tht she'll be the only 1 frm C13 who doesnt want the jersey. honestly, i hve no probs wit tht, but its sorta odd tht somebody frm C13 doesnt hve its own jersey.... u no. anyway, these r the sizes tht jinle, bryna n i came up wit only jst todae coz i'd sorta ripped up the original sheet of paper wit all the desired sizes in thm. oh, n im puttin down the names shown n the jerseys too:

JAMIE_______L
JAS_________M
JINLE_______L
JEY_________L
NEETU______L
ARCHY______M
SIVVY_______L
CLAIRE______L
KIM________L
WAYNE______L
CHARM______XL

haha, i must be the only retard to get a shirt tht's so damn big. soz to ppl who dont like the sizes but cannot change anymore coz its printin already....

oh n some ppl hvnt paid me yet. plz take note tht u hve to find sme way to pay me i must hve the money by nxt fri....jeyanthi, archanaa, and jaslynn. n jas, no excuse this time. mum doesnt allow me to pay for u so u must find sme way to pay full prize. n i suggest tht arch give the money to bra coz u guys live so close together n it doesnt kill u to go to her hse to give her the money. jeyanthi..... u're gonna hve to tell me whn ur band practice is so tht i can cme n hound u for the money.....

went to PS wit jinle n bryna. wanted to watch casino royale wit thm but i promised my sis n cousin tht i wld go watch 'The Covenent' wit thm at tampiness.... aiya, tht movie wasnt tht bad like jinle n bryna had said.... had a pretty gd plot n fightin bit. wasnt too long nor too short. but didnt really like the endin coz it was way to fast 4 me to absorb. erm, hello, wot the hell happened to Chase in the end anyway? ok i get the bit where Caleb's dad died, wieldin him this power thing, but wot happened to the rest of the convenent??? but i guess it's ok...it's nt tht lame really....

but im gonna watch 'The Holiday' n 'Eragon'..... anybody wanna watch it wit me????? coming soon...

I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

2006-11-20T19:35:00.001-08:00

aiya, so friggin bored n so happy tht blog's up n runnin. anyway, doin the megacamp diary thing 4 NYAA. put up on blog when im done. this is like takin ages...

so, i've finished downloadin all the pics frm the 2nd class outin. i no some ppl stil hvnt gotten thm yet, so postin them here. but only postin the gd ones coz i think there r more thn 100 pics.....if u wanna the rest, email me....

< haha...midget tryin to be the ghost in this pic...think wot? Shutter???>

megacamp n peer lite pics will be posted l8 wit the entries stuff. oh n DYNAMITE ROX!!!...n Bluetooth n ALPHA!!! haha so proud to be day2 AlphaWing assis leader!!!

anyway, jst wanna say happy b-l8ed d-day Shi Ying!!! thnx for everythin tht day!!! 2nd class outin was actually kinda fun but a lot of ppl didnt cme even tho they tld me tht they cld cme. it was so damn irritatin tht a lot ppl tld me at the last min tht they cldnt make it n most of thm came up wit the lamest excuses. i mean i can understand siv.... but hello??? the rest of thm even cnfirmed tht they cld make it on sun!!! keep tlkin shit.... anyway, thnx to the ppl who went!!!! luv u all!!!

got all naggy again coz some ppl (.....u no who u r....) brought something to chalet which i'd already banned in the 1st class outin. hello? i'd completely trusted thm not to bring it again. look ppl, they nd to understand tht this is a christian class n school n sme ppl arent gonna like it. moreova, they'renot jst gonna get thmselves in trouble, but the rest of the class n shi ying's parent!!! they'd better use their common sense nxt time.... honestly, this is no jkin matter.....

but nm, they're forgiven by loadz of ppl. but nxt time, if i ever see thm wit it at an outin or wot, im gonna start screamin n bannin thm. sounds dramatic huh. either way, im gonna severe all ties wit thm if they cant be considerate to the rest...

but anyway. bra n i wlked down the beach n i was totally afraid of the dark. pra was more afraid tht somethin was gonna jump out of nowhere..... haha but met emily n tht lot l8 n went to but drinks for ourselves. then celebrated shi ying's b-day wit a cake b4 goin hme.... didnt want bra to be raped or murdered or kidnapped in the dark, gave her a ride to the entrance thn left. oh n we saw this humangous crockroach n bra n i practically screamed....

goin to hougang mall wit jinle, esther, n bryna tmr to pay for the jerseys.....lost my list but at least i got the money!!! thn goin to PS but there is no way im gonna wear any girlie clothes!!! my sis will tho, n shes comin wit us tmr i think..... oh yea, n must ask whether jamie can cme tmr or not.... pra- maybe....c 1st....

speakin of which, i bet wy must hve thought tht im like totally obsessed wit the netballers or something since i wanted to go eat lunch wit thm or smthin, tht is totally not true. honestly, i'h wanted to c mrs tng tht day so tht i can my stupid NYAA signed n meantime, i might as well go eat lunch bra n tht lot. i mean, she said tht it was a team thin, but if it was, y didnt she go wit thm n went off wit kim n claire instead??? wot, she thinks tht im in love wit the netballers???? plz...i jst got 2 no thm durin the megacamp....

why the hell did u do tht for???

2006-11-20T19:35:00.000-08:00

frm bebo:-16 Nov '06

jst got bac only yesterday evening. spent the whole night wakin up n sayin: "time to bath must bath now" n was shakin my teddy bear sayin: "wake up bra, time to bath, hurry up". god! o used to the camp schedule now...I love MegaCamp!!!! the best thing tht ever happened in my life after the peer lite workshop!!! n i was the Wing assis leader too! so fun to command 162 ppl. n bra, u suck at the whole dismissal thing tho. lol. well done to the day 2 omega wing leaders n all the other alpha wing leaders. god....so sleepy now...

luv u loadz to all the ppl whom i've grown closer to: Bra-neh-neh(duh! sleepin in the same tent as me n kickin me n jillian all night!), jiale(my laughing buddy), midget, zhi xian, QinYi(bathin H2O is damned cold huh? first time i heard u scream then. lol!), Ping See, Zhen Yi, Jodie, JinLe(u n ur stupid laughter), Claris(u n ur stupid laughter too), Kia Hwee(n ur dumb laughter too), Pavvy, jeyanthi, archy, sivvy, kimmie, jamie, sadrina, tiffany, robyn, bryna, xioa hui, melissa, nerizza, wan yi, pearlyn, vernissa, julia, amandal, richa, dory(where the hell do u come from???) n all the other ppl frm peer lite, megacamp, choir n netball!

Luv u guyz loadz! n thnx for all ur support when i was wing leader n when i had a slight fever durin campfire! u guys hve made this journey so memorable for me to be a student leader. especailly the time when i smuggled in the bubble gum bac into S'pore!!!

now u're callin me up on the phone,
so tht u can whine n moan
it's only because you're feelin alone...